I was spiritually abused by my father who yanked me out of Catholic
school even though I wanted to be there. I loved religion class, I loved
religious books, I loved the church as a six year old child and he
snatched me out of it to my detriment. I loved to pray as a six year old
child. My mom saved my prayer book I made at age six as proof.
I have since discussed making a prayer book for divorced women with our
youngest monk a total sweetheart. I hope he is ok. I miss him deeply. I
have to pray for him. I wish I could take care of the monastic property
but I have to raise my daughter. I am so sad today. My prayers go out to
that young novice. Perhaps I will send him a letter or an email. The
abbot will read it and pass it on to him as the Hieromonk said. I have
absolutely no problem with this. I am not ashamed of anything. When you
give something to a monk, you give it to his monastery. Loving a monk is
loving his whole monastery. Poor little sweet monk. Oh well at least I
can count on his prayers. I wish I could go see him today.
I was spiritually abused by my mother who expected me to act like a
Catholic child without baptizing me and confirming me and taking me to
Church. My soul has born many spiritual wounds my whole life, it is
scarred by many stripes, red with lashes, and I continue to be
spiritually abused by priests like Father Ambrose. I will not speak of
my first priest.
My story of spiritual abuse is a very deep and long one, it spans my
whole life. I was spiritually abused as a fetus, my mother was not
receiving communion, she was an apostate Catholic. She bore me in her
apostasy, she conceived me in fornication. I was spiritually abused from
the moment of my conception.
I do seek an Orthodox husband to protect me, its true. Now I know a man
in Maine who would make a perfect husband for me, almost, were he out
here. It simply is not fair. I am sick and tired of this. I have a
friend in my parish who is seeking to marry me and I will not marry me.
He is taking me out to "Once" this afternoon. He always praises how I
dress. He is in his 60s, never been married, always been proper. He gave
me my prayer rope, a 100 bead rosewood prayer rope from Monastery.icons.
Expensive I guess? Everyone always compliments me on it. I told him no
romance, and he accepts this.
When am I going to meet a man I have feelings for?
Olympiada
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